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Name: Bobo
State: California
Gender: Female
Interests: UHHH... Lotsa things. Like drawing, and dancing, and singing, and biking, and hiking, and badminton, and swimming, and sleeping, and chatting, and... Lotsa things. But probably meeting new people best, or having fun. :D
Expertise: I'm good at being me. :D
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
AIM:  L00KiTZB0B0
Yahoo:  babii_pinkish@sbcglobal.net
Member Since:
11/23/2004
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| Okay, so I should be working on this term paper that's due tomorrow, but I don't have the heart to try and understand all this phooie my professor has tried to instill in my brain for the past two or three weeks. I just can't find the correlation between population growth and economic development; not the way she wants it at least. I mean, come on, more people equals more production which equals economic growth... Until the economy can't grow anymore with its limited resources... Which calls for lowered birthrates so that it will not have to provide for even more people in the long-run. Something like that. And I have to translate that two line "idea" into a three-and-a-half page long essay that will account for 20% of my grade. What baloneeey... And I really need to do well on this, because I BOMBED my last exam. 60 something %... DARNIT. Well, better than half the class I admit, but that's not even much to brag about when you think about it. Hopefully, I am able to maintain a C or something... As long as I pass, I don't really care. lol
So my friend asked me about whether I was really lesbian or not, because I was checking out girls more than guys when I was with him today. I thought about why I liked checking out girls more, and the truth of the matter is, girls are just better to look at than guys. Most guys at least. I mean, girls tend to pay more attention to how they look, so there's more detail in their appearance; whereas a guy usually does less. Wouldn't you rather study a detailed painting than an abstract piece of art? The abstract art may look more clean, and modernized, and easier to look a because it's so simple, but a detailed painting has more to study, and always has a surprise every time you look at it. I think girls are like paintings. Then again, "checking out" people have different meanings. Like, you can "check out" another guy/girl just because you think they look better compared to other people, and they may dress a certain way that you find appealing. But I think the "checking out" most people refer to is whether the opposite sex sends their hearts fluttering with the amount of sex appeal that they have. So does sexual orientation refer to who you'd rather have sex with? Ehhh... I'll get back to this and add more to it when I'll feeling less lazy and more talkative. lol | | |
| Okay, so I haven't deleted it... -__- Major fail on my part. Sorry. lol But man, I guess no matter how long it's been, I'm just gonna come back to this and blog here... It's too much of a hassle to make a new one, and remember everything again... I hate that. I have all these accounts, and it's so much of a bother to remember what password I made it with or whatever... Oh well.
Man, you ever get those times when one thing someone does just ruins your entire day? So here I am, nearing my finals for the second quarter at De Anza... Yea, De Anza. And so we're on our second midterm (I don't get that... doesn't midterm mean you have ONE kinda big exam before your final because it's the halfway point of the quarter..? You know.. MIDterm..) Anyways, so we're in the week of the second midterms, and man, I am running on edge, not only because I've been slowing down, but because I've also been down with a really bad cold. The ones that come with the bad pains all over your body, feel like an ice cube on fire, and make you think you're a slug because you're secreting fluids what seems like every pore of your body... Not just the sweat. Haha maybe that was TMI. My bad. But you know what I mean. Pretty bad. So I'm feeling really crappy, stressed over the amount of work that has seemed to accumulate along with the number of things I've needed to do for a while now... And people just don't make it any better. You'd think I'd be able to catch up with some of my classmates help... This one guy I call (he was in my group for a project) sounds like he's kind of annoyed that I called him, like I'm bothering him with what seems like stupid questions now. All the people from my chem class copy off of me, so it wouldn't matter there. Good thing I can count on the people in my anthropology class. Well, one of them. lol So I'm falling behind, and sick, and I don't even know whether I'm doing the right thing for the right class (I have different classes on different days), and BAM my parents come outta no where and stat yelling at me (for a good reason, but it still kind of pisses me off). I hate how I do something wrong, and then they start yelling at me like I don't know what happened, and I don't feel bad for what happened. WTF. Its not like I'm a bad person or whatever... I always roll my eyes whenever my mom agrees with people when they say I'm such a "good girl". Oh if they only knew what they really thought.. And my dad thinks everything will just go away by telling us to shut up and go to sleep... I love my parents, but MAN, they put me on edge. haha Wow. I haven't rambled on like this for a while...
Have you ever noticed how people blog on their xangas or whatever and they put it out for the whole world to see because they want people to know they're "suffering", because people are, but then when people ask them about it, they get mad, or when people read it, they get mad because it wasn't their intention for other people to read it? Or just in general, when someone's upset, and they go to someone else for help (you), and they tell you they're whole spiel, and they obviously expect an answer from you... But when you offer them advice, they get mad at you because you A) don't understand what they're "real" problem is, or B) because they didn't want your help. What kind of crazy person does that?! ... lol I did. Man, I was twisted. It's not that I don't want help, I just don't usually accept it. I forgot where I was going with this. haha But uh... right, people. Don't make fun of other people for their problems. (This sounds cliche but) how would you feel if someone else looked at our problems and said, "this isn't a big deal, what are you crying over? You're so weak." That's messed up right? I hate people like that. But at the same time, I hate people who do nothing for themselves. If you're just going to sit and wallow in your own self pity, don't go to other for help. It's only a burden. I sound kinda mean now. "/ Not that I won't listen to people's problems, I mean, I'm always there for my friends (or I hope I am), just don't expect me to offer you advice or something, and then say "that won't work because..." because I'VE tried my best at helping you. Well, there are many facets to a person, so many facets to a problem, so I guess there are always those "what if's" and "but's"... But there's a limit you know? So I noticed I did that, and realized how annoying it is when other people do it. Good thing I can always fix my own problems, 'cause no one else understands better than yourself what to do... Unless you're a stranger, like Erwin says... Something like that.
This is really long now. And I was only taking a short break from my papers... lol Oh well. Stupid homework. Stupid school. Stupid need to go to school and take stupid tests to prove your worth to the rest of the world... As if some numbers on a piece of paper can REALLY define how great you are. Or not. Have you ever thought about it? Why we have to go to school... I mean, I understand the whole thing about furthering your own intellect to be able to think beyond our current perspective and create a better world... But what's with all the tests? School has become something not for the intellectually able to further themselves, but for those who are not to develop themselves. Not that it's a bad thing... But why force others to go to school when they are more than capable for themselves in a job that requires them only to know how to work with a certain thing or whatever... Like the questions always asked: When are we going to use calculus in real life? I understand algebra and stuff, and geometry... But really, calculus and statistic? We learned how to compare things a long time ago. I personally don't need a more complex way to count to know that a triangle is not a circle... lol Or use "imaginary numbers" that apparently don't even exist in real life! If an equation doesn't work, it doesn't work! To me, life shouldn't be that complicated... It's only for those who have enough time on their hands, and those who want to know why the earth is round and not square, or what the mathematical answer to life is (a lot of people say 42... I think it's 2. lol Why? Because it's just perfect. Can be evenly split *if there were two people...*, 2x2=4, and 2+2=4, 2squared=4... See? And my lucky number is 22. lol Two 2's. Get it? hahaha). So sometimes, I think school is really stupid. It requires you to learn all these things to be better than the rest of the world... As if to say "Haha, our kids know more trivial things than your kids." What a waste of time.
Okay, I'm done wasting my time on hear talking about really boring stuff nobody wants to hear about. lol Time to get back to my papers! -___-" | | |
| So I don't know... What ever caused me to come here to vent... But oh well.
Winterball sucked for those for you who didn't go... Yea, main light was on, and teachers being a little stingy, but whatever. It's what you expect of a school dance, here at least.
Rest of weekend went by pretty okay. Went can collecting with band, and it was alright. Saturday had chinese school and that was interesting, and then drove with daddy for a good two hours, and then he dropped me off at Curtner to meet up with band people to collect. Then Byron let me drive the whole day and that was pretty interesting... No more illegal stuff...! ><" lol Well, today was... Pretty good too I guess. Not so much as yesterday, but whatever. Woke up still on the line with Ty, so that's about a million minutes there, and then got a couple more phone calls from some random people, and then fell back asleep... Finally got up and showered, and ate with mommy and bro, then rummaged around garage, and found some interesting stuff I never really knew we had,... Well, then mom dropped me off at Curtner an collected again, pretty okay today, but we never even totally finished our area, and we skipped a few.. Oh well. Got lazy, they did. Anyways, then Byron dropped a bunch of us off at MHS, and Ty and I went back to his place to hang out, and make omelets, which turned out to be one gigantic one.. lol Yea, interesting cooking adventure, our first today. ;D & then we just chilled in his hammock, and fell off a couple of times... haha Good times. Then his mom made us some hot chocolate, and that was good. :] She makes awesome hot chocolate. Well, then she dropped me off at home, and this is where the ranting comes in...
So I get online, and By ims me, and the first thing he says is "so I guess we're not going to be talking much now huh?" I'm confused, and I thought he was talking about when I missed his call earlier, so I'm like, okay. And then Ty ims me, and we're talking, and then By says oh yea, I'm going to cut back time from us hanging out so you and Ty can hang out ore... So I go to Ty and ask him wth was going on, and apparently, they had another one of their boy talks and figured, maybe he should just avoid an ignore me so the other one can spend more time with me... But in reality, I'm going to be busy and won't be able to hang out with anyone anyways... So WTFreak? What does it matter now? So then By calls me about the whole blackout he had in his neighborhood, and then we talk, and he gets kinda mad at me, and says "I'm hanging up now" and hangs up. Well, anyways, this all leads up to me taking time away from Ty because of this... Which is the total opposite of what his ignoring me was supposed to do. Irony. Well, boys are stupid. & now, nobody's going to hang out with me because I said so. It's really starting to piss me off, if you'll excuse my french. Honestly, if I asked you to hang out, don't go and cut short our hang out time because someone else wants to hang out with me. I'll do that myself. I don't need someone there helping me manage my time. But whatever.
Lots of gifts to buy still btw... Xmas shopping anyone?
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| Tyler, you're such a stalker... lol
Wow, I haven't been here in like, forever. Or the last time I blogged.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone. :]
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| So I haven't been here in a while. Hi. (: Bye. | | |
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